Another doodle from back when Pokémon GO first came out and I was like "finally I can romp around with monsters in real life sorta". I'd be a pretty terrifying Pokémon trainer actually.

 I doodled this back in the day when Neopets was still good, because there were a few editions of the Neopian Times editorial where the editor decided to have some fun and let site characters King Jazan and Hanso answer player-submitted questions... much to their consternation. It was hilarious.

I've actually written multiple Neopian Times short stories about the misadventures of the long-suffering Jazan and the Ixi thieves who keep him on his toes (i.e. both Hanso and his wife Nabile). I haven't been putting them on this site because I wanted to keep focused on my main Neopian Times cast, but maybe I'll add them to the collection someday.

I also wrote an NT short story that's a series of correspondences between a desperately penitent Jazan and a very vindictive Princess Amira, in which she makes his life miserable as politely as possible and he tries very hard to be diplomatic about it. It's got a Jane Austen-esque vibe to it and I had a lot of fun writing it, so I'll have to post it here eventually.

(To be clear, I like Jazan; I thought he had a really interesting character arc in the Lost Desert plot and I loved further developments of his character in subsequent plotlines. His high-strung personality and complicated relationships with other characters just make him really amusing to write situational comedy about.)

I doodled this to commemorate the end of the Cassini-Huygens mission back in 2017.* Cassini-Huygens was one of the big planetary exploration missions going on when I started following space stuff more closely in college**, and I really enjoyed keeping up with the plucky probe's adventures around the Saturn system over the years, until it was finally time to say goodbye (and did it ever go out in grand fashion).

Here's hoping we get missions like this for the ice giants one day!

*If you take a look at the sidebar, you'll notice that I started this blog in 2017. But I didn't put this illustration up then, because Cassini-Huygens ended in September of that year, and I didn't start this blog until October. It narrowly missed out on being one of my first posts, I guess.

*I have been a space geek since I could read, but the proliferation of social media around the time I was in college made space news more accessible, so that's when I really started paying attention to things that were going on in space as they were happening, not just reading about them years after the fact. Plus, as a teenager, I was unfortunately distracted from science by stuff like too many video games, bad friendships, and just trying to survive high school.

Something sort of abstract that I painted in college, purely out of the relief of getting through a really intensive month-long summer mathematics course that left me with no time for art.

 This isn't really supposed to represent anything in particular or have a story behind it; my being a paleontology geek has just left me with an unusual fascination with skulls (but less in a goth way and more in a nature-is-amazing way).

Incidentally, I suffered a major health breakdown a couple of months after that class, and I don't think those two things were unrelated. Take care of yourself, folks--there's no use earning a fancy college degree if you die in the process.

I've been rooting around my hard drive and I found more old artwork that wasn't terrible, so I thought I'd go ahead and share it here.

First up, some rare Digimon fanart. I didn't care much for Davis when 02 was first airing, but as an adult he's grown on me because he's just so ridiculous. Veemon is an absolute cinnamon roll and I'd love to have him as my Digimon partner (I could really use his upbeat enthusiasm and unconditional friendliness on days when I'm an anxious mess).

This picture in particular was inspired by the third Digimon movie (i.e. the last part of the amalgamated Digimon: The Movie that was released in the West), which had a definite vibe to it. It was surreal and weird and the animation was totally different to the TV series, and I just loved the evocative setting of the characters traveling through the American West, the plot culminating in the rolling fields of southern Colorado in the summer. Also, although the film didn't really try to be all that deep, it had some good messages about the value of friendship and that yes, letting people into your life and letting them help you can be terrifying, but true friends are worth taking a chance on.

It was like a road film if you replaced the cars with Digimon, and I feel like it took the franchise and its storytelling in a new and unique direction. I also have nostalgic memories of watching Digimon: The Movie during a sleepover at a friend's house in junior high (that was back in ye olden times when you rented VHS cassettes from Blockbuster). 

I've been on a My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic kick lately, so of course I had to draw myself as a pony.

 I swear Twilight Sparkle is my actual spirit animal, and one of the reasons why I enjoy MLP:FiM so much is because fiction needed more egghead heroines who save the day through research, overthink everything, and have friends who help them get out of their own head and live a more balanced life.

I'd love to get my 7-year-old niece into FiM, but right now she's too busy obsessing over The Nightmare Before Christmas, zombies, and mummies. She's every bit as terrifying as her cousin in her own unique way.

 This didn't actually happen while we were playing, but in my headcanon this is how these two met. I thought this would be a fitting sendoff for this comic series. For now, I've got other projects to work on... until my niece decides she wants to play through Tears of the Kingdom. 

 Well, we finally finished the game*. It took us nearly a year (silly school getting in the way of video games), but it was a fun ride and I'm glad I got to come along. These comics also gave me a fun project to work on, so I'm grateful for that. It was nice to flex my cartooning muscles(?) a bit.

Ironically, my niece had been badgering my sister for weeks to just go fight Ganon already. And then this happened. (My sister said, "Do you want me to wait for you?" "No. (leaves the room)")

My sister and niece have started (re)playing Ocarina of Time and I've been watching, but I'm not sure I'm going to draw any comics about that, because a big part of what inspired these BotW comics was the sheer spontaneity of my sister and niece experiencing that game for the first time, my sister having no idea what she was doing (I coached her when she needed it, don't worry), and my niece being totally ridiculous the whole time. When we play OoT, it's more my niece eating snacks while my sister and I reminisce about when we thought N64 graphics were the most amazing thing we'd ever seen. Still fun, but it just doesn't quite fire my creativity the way BotW with them did.

That said, I think we're going to have a lot of fun with Tears of the Kingdom when they get around to playing that.

*Sort of. We freed all the Divine Beasts, beat Ganon, and completed a lot of the Ancient Shrines and some of the side quests. I wanted to take them through all the Shrines and side quests, but my niece's attention span only goes so far and I think they were ready to move on.

Waterhole

Time for more nerdy space poetry!

I find SETI (the search for extraterrestrial intelligence) a really fascinating subject, not only because it seeks to answer a very poignant question, but because I think the search may ultimately tell humanity more about themselves than about the beings they're trying to find out there. It's an interesting philosophical exercise.

I've read a lot of literature that runs the speculation spectrum about what ETI might be like and why, after decades of having the technological capability to theoretically detect them, we haven't found any trace of them. One line of thought that I'm not a fan of is the idea that ETI are malevolent, and we should not try to alert them to our presence or else we risk dooming our planet. Stephen Hawking was a proponent of this idea and was against sending intentional messages to ETI (hence the poem's subtitle).

But I really don't think humanity should let pessimism or fear limit us and control our actions. Collectively and individually, we do great things by dreaming big and daring big. I don't see any reason why we should stop reaching for the stars.

(At any rate, I have my serious doubts about the existence of malevolent ETI that could pose a threat to Earth on purely logical grounds. Any civilization advanced enough to be dangerous, with the ability to reach Earth worryingly quickly, would definitely possess the ability to discern that Earth has an industrial civilization on it, with or without us broadcasting our presence. If that sort of ETI existed, we should have been invaded by now.)

 She keeps forgetting the name of Dubious Food and calls it something different every time.

(Yes, I know meat and berries don't make Dubious Food. That's the other part of the joke. No matter how many times I try to explain the cooking system to her, she still doesn't quite get it. I think she's too busy looking for horses.)

 My niece wanted to go ride bikes with her friend (I guess she's allowed to hang out with people her own age sometimes), so my sister and I decided to keep playing with my sister's cat in tow.

It wasn't quite the same.

 

I'm very pleased to announce that the audiobook edition of Between the Salt Water and the Sea Strand is now available on Audible! David Ault worked so hard on this audiobook and I think it turned out spectacularly. If audiobooks are your thing, please give it a listen!

 Sometimes it's like she doesn't even want Link to save Hyrule. (I guarantee you that if someone were to say something like 'my headcanon is that she's secretly evil', my niece will absolutely take that and run with it.)

This really happened, and this is why you can't leave her with the controller unattended.

retrograde

 On occasion I write poetry!

I'm fascinated by the fact that just because our Solar System looks a certain way right now, doesn't mean things were the same all throughout its history. It's also amazing how in the past few decades of space science, researchers have noticed peculiar little incongruities about our planetary neighborhood, and from them have begun to tease out pieces of an incredible story--tales of wild planetary migrations, moon systems built from the rubble of an earlier satellite catastrophe, and episodes of intense bolide bombardment. It makes our present-day Solar System seem completely tame in comparison. I'm excited to see what other stories we can uncover as we learn more about our little spot of space.

Neptune's moon Triton is a definite oddball in its system. It's the largest Neptunian moon by far, looks completely unlike the others, and has a really unusual retrograde orbit. From this and other bits of evidence, most scientists have reached the consensus that Triton is probably a Kuiper Belt object that was gravitationally captured by Neptune when that planet moved outward during aforementioned planetary migration episode. However, in order for this to work, Triton would have had to have originally been part of a binary system, and the capturing interaction would have to involve its companion being flung away to who-knows-where. 

It's a rather poignant story when you think about it--somewhere out there is a missing twin, wandering the void alone after an unfortunate encounter with a big blue bully. Is there any way to figure out if a given object is Triton's missing companion? Makes you wonder if we'll ever happen upon it someday.

If we do, we should tell Triton.

 I wasn't feeling all that great today and decided to phone it in as far as art stuff.

I'm not really good at phoning it in.

This maybe isn't something you want constantly in your ear while trying to navigate a puzzle full of live currents and killer robots. But she persisted nevertheless.

 The last of the traditional media pieces (that I feel are worth sharing, anyway). I sort of randomly made up this character design for the Star Wars universe, but never did anything with her.

All this old art has given me a hankering for doing stuff with marker again. I'd love to get some Copics and go camp out at my local museum and just doodle colorful dinos all day. Sounds like a dream.

 Random creature design; the idea was that these blind beings float on the wind and absorb airborne nutrients through the gill-tendrils on the underside of their heads. I like its little rodent paws. Purple and red brush pen with colored pencil.

 She's at it again! Link's sassy little companion has been pretty busy with school (and playing through Echoes of Wisdom), but we finally managed to get some play time in. We might go challenge Ganon soon... but rest assured she'll be back to join Link on his Tears of the Kingdom adventures at some point.

This actually happened. It was great.

 More watercolor! I really love working with watercolor, but it does require a certain amount of work space that I just don't have right now. Maybe someday I'll get a dedicated art desk and then I can do more with traditional media. For now, though, I'm really uneasy with the idea of trying to fit open water on the same desk as all my electronics.

This character design was inspired by the cat-people in Escaflowne, a fantasy anime that I remember aired for a brief period on Fox Kids once upon a time (this really dates me). Later I learned that it was really a heavily-edited version of the series Vision of Escaflowne, which was decidedly not a kids' show. Lesson to dubbing company producers: if you're bringing an anime over to the English market with the intention to present it to kids, it would help if the title in question was aimed at children to begin with.

I also based this design after one of my previous cats, a lovely tortoiseshell. She was a sweet girl.

(Looking at this piece now, it's nice and all, but I seem to have had no concept of the idea of line weight. Those thin lines are really getting lost beneath the bold watercolor. I'd love to do something with brush pen and watercolor one of these days.)

 Sometimes I dabble in watercolor!

This was a design I concocted in college for a tabletop roleplaying campaign where my character was an eccentric mechanist in a world with Renaissance-level technology--kind of like Leonardo da Vinci, but female and questionably sane. It's always a great day when your character's skillset allows them to build their own combat vehicles with a few good dice rolls. (She ultimately ended up building her own airship, so that was fun.)

As an aside, I like the idea of tabletop roleplaying, but I haven't participated in any of it for a while because I had some bad experiences with groups who were unpleasant and unfriendly. I think if I were to do any more roleplaying, it would have to be with family and/or close, trusted friends.*

*I actually wrote a Neopets fanfic about this issue that I never bothered submitting to the Neopian Times. I'll get around to posting it on this blog eventually and ranting more about the importance of being a decent human being during highly social games that have to do a great deal with both group synergy and treating every player with respect and kindness.

Video game ramblings: cancellations, consoles, and how to make a bad mobile RPG

 Is this blog turning into less of an original artistic content blog and more of a ranty gaming blog? Perhaps the question I should really be asking myself is, does anybody actually care either way?

With some recent occurrences in video gamery, and just overall thinking about things in my spare time, I've come up with another batch of items to discuss and no better place to put them. Read on if you're bored enough.

 Another old piece. This was a panther martial artist character I semi-randomly made up and never did anything with. Back in junior high/high school/college, I often used to make up characters and vague storylines behind them, but not really do anything with them besides draw them a lot. I'm not saying that's an invalid thing to do with characters; I guess it's just struck me looking back, how many characters I used to make up who never went anywhere, when nowadays I generally only create characters that are going in a written piece.

At any rate, I still like her design.

 More old art. I love working with markers. Brush pen and marker is seriously one of my favorite media combinations.

This creature design stemmed from a frankly bizarre story idea I concocted in high school, about a motley group of humans and aliens living on a derelict deep-space station. The main character was a preteen boy whose ancestor on the station had stumbled upon a sinister entity from another dimension who had emerged in the depths of the station, but no one believed him and his family became regarded as a joke through the generations. There was also a mysterious and brooding young man who was secretly the lost prince of a planet that had experienced a civil war some years past, and a moody teenage girl with an alien stepdad whose biomech she regularly "borrowed" for space escapades. 

(It's okay, you can laugh.)

The biomechs in the story were very odd creatures that were organically grown in laboratories and had armor plating and control systems implanted into their bodies. They were sapient and capable of communicating with their pilots.

I never really went anywhere with the story; I think I was trying to be cool and come up with some conceptually super deep sci-fi, but, well, I was 14. 

(I executed this piece much later. My art definitely did not look like that in high school.)

The other day I was feeling bored enough to do some vanity Googling, and to my surprise, Google's AI actually came up with an overview for my Neopian Times work. I'm a little shocked because nobody actually seems to care that much about it, but perhaps it has more to do with the fact that I was fairly prolific back in the day, and my username showed up frequently across many issues of the NT in a certain time frame.

(Although, this is the first I've heard of being "well-known" within the community. One of the reasons why I stopped writing for the Times was because my work was getting ignored, and I honestly haven't interacted with the player community in ages. Apparently AI thinks that prolificity = renown, so it needs a reality check.)

 As much as I eternally loathe generative AI, I concede that sometimes it is good for a laugh. I have no idea why the AI picked those four particular pieces to detail, instead of, say, one of my epically long series. The bottom two are super old and janky contributions from when I was in high school, and every time I see them I just sort of wince. 

Okay, actually that "Fifty Reasons" article is pretty decently funny by high-school-me standards. It was basically me poking fun at how, for two consecutive plots, players could choose to fight on the side of the good guys (Isca, Hannah, et al) or the bad guys (gangs of pirates and thieves, respectively), and so many people inexplicably went the "evil is cool" route instead of seeing the logic in trying to keep Neopia safe. This article was trying to point out, in a tongue-in-cheek passive-aggressive manner, that both thieves and pirates are pretty gross when you stop to think about it.

"The Ensorcellator" is a tepid little short story from when I was going through a writerly phase where I had just plain run out of ideas, and decided my inspiration process would basically be "pick random stuff and make stuff up about it". Yeah. I'm glad I grew out of that phase and moved on to "let's wait until I actually get an idea for a story".

The AI summaries are also a little off. "On Developing Your Neopet's Character" is actually an op-ed that discusses various ways one might go about giving one's Neopet a personality and biography, with examples of how I formulated my own Neopets' characters. And that's a pretty generic description of "Ylana Skyfire: Protector of Spring", which is actually more about Ylana and a clingy fanfic-writing geek (who is totally me making fun of myself) searching for a missing Illusen. (I actually do recommend this one, as it's more recent and I had great fun writing it. Maybe I'll put it on this blog at some point.)

As an opinionated aside, I'm still not a fan of the directions Neopets is heading under its current management and I have no desire to start playing the website again. I much preferred the Adam-and-Donna and Viacom days, when Neopets was more "we're marketing this franchise to kids but we know plenty of adults play too" and not "Hey Gen-Z's! Let's make your childhood on-trend!". Way to alienate everybody else, guys. Thanks.

 Another old piece; I was just playing around with character design. I'm aware the proportions are really funky; I actually went in and tried to fix them a bit in Corel but they still look off. Still, I'm fond of this illustration because I think it nicely evokes the feel of adventuring through a fantasy world.

 Another old traditional piece. This is a life reconstruction of an ammonoid (possibly Parapuzosia seppenradensis) looking very hypothetically like a modern nautilus. Usually ammonoids are reconstructed with more octopus-like soft tissue, but from what I understand, so little ammonoid soft tissue has been found, it's still really up in the air what they looked like aside from their shells. I just like the idea of a 2-meter nautilus cruising along the oceans of the Cretaceous. I imagine you could probably hitch a ride on its shell and it wouldn't even notice.

Executed in brush pen and Prismacolor marker, with some white acrylic paint for accents. I love the look and feel of Prisma markers, but their two major downsides are that a) they are expensive and b) they're noxiously smelly so you have to use them in a well-ventilated area. That's why I haven't done much with them lately. If I had the budget, I would invest in some Copic markers, which last time I checked are hands-down the best art marker in the universe (and don't smell), but they're also on the pricey side. I guess that's probably why I do more digital work these days; traditional art is fun but the materials are so costly. /artist rant

 Recently I remembered that I actually have a bunch of old traditional (i.e. non-digital) artwork lying around (i.e. neatly tucked away in a portfolio), and I thought it would be fun to post it here.

Here's a little standee of Blynn that I crafted for a Neopets contest some years ago. It didn't win (apparently most people don't share my cauliflower obsession), but I had fun regardless.

 Remember that announcement I teased a while back? Well, it's ready to be announced: Between the Salt Water and the Sea Strand is getting an audiobook adaptation!

Not only that, but the narrator is none other than David Ault, co-creator of the Jodcast, professional voice actor, and all-around awesome guy! We got to chatting on a comment thread on a Jodcast X post, I asked him if he'd be interested in the project since the character of the faerie king was actually partly inspired by him, and now an audiobook has happened, and it turns out social media can be useful after all!

David has been an absolute joy to work with, and he did an amazing job drawing the listener into the story and bringing the characters to life, and even singing which he gets a jillion gold stars for. (And, being English, he can do a much better British accent than I can.) 

He also did me the huge service of going through the text and making sure everything was in proper British English. Because as much as I love the UK, I have never been there (yet), and although I grew up reading a lot of British children's literature, enjoy following British astronomy, have written way too much Neopets fanfic that was required to use British English to be accepted for publication in the Neopian Times, and I think nowadays I actually listen to Brits more than Americans*, there are some definite gaps in my knowledge (usually about items that are not related to astronomy or food or medieval combat). (Did you know they call crosswalks "pedestrian crossings" there? Wild!) 

So I am indebted to David for giving me a crash course on British English (and a fascinating side trip into British geographical nomenclature!), as well as correcting things that I promise I actually already knew, but that I missed when I was converting the manuscript from American to British English. To make a short story long (which I can do because this is my blog and there are no word count limits that I have yet found), I originally wrote the manuscript in American English despite the story taking place in England, simply because I am American, I live in America, and aside from aforementioned fanfic with specific publication requirements, I feel it's dishonest of me to pretend to be British when I write. But when David signed on for the audiobook, I figured that sort of gave me the green light to just go ahead and make it British. It's an international production, much like the James Webb Space Telescope and Fraggle Rock! (But I still missed some odd things in the transition, like calling trousers "pants" which is British English 101, and not spelling "armour" the Commonwealth way, despite my Neopets fics involving quite a bit of armour and I am perfectly aware how it's supposed to be spelled and I am still kicking myself about it. I think I need more sleep. David was so patient with me and he deserves a medal.)

Anyway, that's neither here nor there; the point of these ramblings is that the audiobook is coming to Audible very soon, so keep an eye out for it (or keep an eye on this blog, or my social media, I guess)!

*Speaking of listening to a lot of British people, I think I've begun to pick up a little bit of an English accent, which is going to be very awkward if I ever have a real spoken conversation with a British person. I guess I could try hard to sound more American? Would they even notice? Am I just overthinking everything again?????

Video game ramblings: the unecessary sequel

 Again, it's time for more random rants about stuff that's been on my mind and I can't find a real excuse to write it up, so I'm just going to collect it all into this blog post and hope no one notices.

Below the jump you'll find more stuff about Pokémon (although surprisingly not about Scarlet and Violet this time), Digimon, Zelda, Super Mario Bros., filmmaking, and web design just because.

 

Carrie and Saturos enjoying a little arcane study date. They get married at the end of the book, and that's major spoilers, but I'm not sure when I'm actually going to get around to publishing the manuscript, so probably by then everyone will have forgotten about it.

While constructing the plot, I went back and forth for a bit about whether or not they were going to end up together, but at one point in the book, Carrie builds up enough self-esteem to break up with her horrible boyfriend back on Earth, and I realized the ultimate resolution to that wasn't just that she was out of a bad relationship, but that she needed the best relationship possible to make up for it.

I'm not a fan of unconvincingly putting two characters together just for the sake of an arbitrary romance, but in the case of these two it just seemed to work. Saturos really appreciates Carrie's kindness and friendship toward him and his subjects, despite Castle Ravenscrag giving off the whole dark lord vibe (it's touched upon in the book that that sort of thing is the usual aesthetic for Saturos's people), and loves having someone he can finally talk quantum-mechanics-magic shop with and who is interested in his travels to other worlds. And Carrie appreciates everything Saturos does for her to make her stay at Ravenscrag as pleasant and enjoyable as possible, his gentlemanly demeanor, and his selfless and sincere interest in letting her be herself that is the polar opposite of how people back on Earth treated her. I think there's someone out there for everybody, and when you've found the right person, you've found the right person. Even if that person is a dimension-hopping demigod who likes to pretend to be a D&D end boss.

Also, in this novel I wanted to address another fantasy fiction pet peeve of mine, which is where at the end of the adventure, the protagonist returns to Earth and leaves a super cool world behind for the sake of keeping up the status quo, except maybe with a few life lessons learned. Like, why would you ditch magic powers and/or an enchanted weapon and/or the friends who helped you through the journey and/or dragons!!!! so you can go back to stuff like laundry and homework?! 

It's just as bad when the author really forces a lame excuse as to why the hero can never ever go back to the fantasy world ever, and they're destined to be completely ordinary for the rest of their days. I almost feel like it kind of sends the message that in the end, you don't get what you really want out of life, which I don't think is true in the slightest as long as you don't give up and follow your inner voice. So I went ahead and gave Carrie what she truly wanted and needed, and a big part of her character arc is her learning to accept and enjoy her life being so much more awesome than she ever thought it could be.

(Saturos also teaches her how to open dimensional portals, so she can go back and forth between Arthabasca and Earth whenever she wants, as well as let Tam visit. Saturos and Carrie are going to need to go back to Earth at some point anyway so Saturos can meet his new in-laws. That's going to be awkward at best, especially since Saturos is not at all pleased with Carrie's parents trying to mold her into a performing STEM monkey.)

I had so much fun writing the cast of this novel that when I finished, it left me wanting to do more with them. However, unlike Disney I don't believe in sequels for the sake of sequels, so we'll see if I get any concrete ideas for another adventure with these guys. Until then, though, I have a lot of other novel ideas I'd like to get around to.

Also, there are tiny wyverns flitting about Arthabasca. <3

 The other protagonist of the novel I've been working on. Brainy Carrie has spent her entire life overachieving to try to please her parents and teachers, but in the middle of her biotechnology master's thesis, she suffers a health breakdown, throwing her family's perfect-looking life into disarray. Between endless rounds of medical testing, failing college classes she was once acing because she can't get out of bed, a boyfriend who's never satisfied with her efforts, and the stress the situation is causing her family, Carrie feels like she's letting everyone down--and then Saturos spirits her away to Castle Ravenscrag.

While at first understandably upset that she has to be the damsel in distress while her younger sister Tam gets to go on the epic adventure, Carrie finds that Saturos isn't nearly as villainous as he wanted to seem, and the other residents of Ravenscrag, despite their monstrous appearances, are every bit as kind and friendly as their dark lord. Carrie also discovers that she has reality-bending powers that only manifest in this world, and Saturos brought her here because he needed her help saving his planet from an ancient threat poised to reawaken.

As Carrie eases into life at Ravenscrag, where everyone actually seems invested in her happiness, her health returns and Saturos helps her come to some important realizations about her situation back on Earth. With her fondness for Ravenscrag growing, and her friendship with Saturos deepening, Carrie must ultimately decide whether she wants to continue to try to chase after the expectations of people who take too much from her, or to be happy in someplace she truly loves with the best friends she's ever had--and then there's also the looming problem of Tam on the loose getting into all sorts of trouble with archaic elementals in an attempt to rescue her sister.

Carrie and Tam are the dual heroines of the novel, which follows their separate and very different adventures in the fantasy world of Arthabasca. Carrie is the polar opposite of her sister in many ways, and she comes from me wanting to see more speculative fiction about kind, polite people who get to go on adventures. I was that nerdy kid who spent summer breaks reading all the fantasy and sci-fi I could get my hands on in the children's section of the library, but one thing that used to drive me crazy was how many of those books involved a mouthy, self-centered protagonist who just complained the whole time they were journeying through a really fascinating setting and interacting with lovable creatures. I get that what those authors were probably trying to do is give the reader the satisfaction of watching the protagonist build character through their trials, but for me, it also just kinda sent the (unrealistic) message that only those with egregious personality flaws get to enjoy fantastic escapades. (Nearly as bad is Exhibit B, the protagonist who is eternally clueless about how the fantasy world works and shows no desire to actually explore and learn about their surroundings, just to go defeat the bad guy ASAP so they can hurry and get back to mundane reality, which strangely appeals to them more.) 

It always seemed like the adventures happened to the characters who didn't appreciate them, and it was really fulfilling to finally write about a heroine who actually enjoys getting clothes made for her by giant spiders, befriending the resident demonic sorcerer, and living her best life in the obligatory foreboding (but very comfortable) fortress where the weather is always stormy for some reason.

I also wanted Carrie's character arc to speak to people who may be struggling with putting too much pressure on themselves and/or letting other people put too much pressure on them. Life isn't supposed to be about joining the rat race and seeing how impressive of a career you can achieve--you contribute the most to the world when you're doing what truly makes you happy, and your real value to others lies in how you lift their lives, not how much money you make or how many accomplishments your resumé lists.

 

I drew this for my niece's birthday; I've been having a blast playing Zelda with her and I'm hoping we'll get more gameplay in at some point. Right now she's pretty busy with school, but come summer break we'll be tromping all over Hyrule again.

Also I guess I have to change the name of the comic now.

Video game ramblings

 I'm not even gonna make up an excuse for this; I just wanted to blog out stuff about video games. (Spoiler alert for Zelda and Pokémon games!)

 Concept design for Tam, one of the main protagonists of the novel I've been working on. Tam is a 16-year-old who's got it all together: her parents buy her whatever she wants, she's super popular at school, she's a star athlete, and she's tremendously spoiled and entitled because of her legendary tantrums.

When Tam's sister Carrie is taken away by the mysterious Lord Saturos, Tam follows them and finds herself adventuring through the fantastic world of Arthabasca on a quest to free the Erdunn, powerful elemental entities. Tam develops a special bond with the first Erdunn she finds, Smaragdus, who is able to link with Tam to lend the girl her powers over crystal and electricity.

While at first Tam isn't used to actually having to solve her own problems, as she journeys through Arthabasca, she learns how to work for what she wants and that the universe doesn't revolve around her. But in her stubborn drive to outwit Saturos and get Carrie back home, Tam is missing some critical details about her adversary and the beings she is helping, and her actions may end up deciding the fate of Arthabasca.

Tam was fun to write as the archetype of the bratty teen who goes on a character-building adventure. She's sort of me poking fun at the fact that in a lot of teen-oriented fantasy, the main character is a disagreeable person who it seems the writer just sent on a quest to learn some life lessons and get a good dose of humility. In Tam's case, she gets her quest completely wrong and really makes a mess that Saturos and Carrie are stuck trying to clean up--but she does end up learning some life lessons along the way, and in the end, she helps to permanently make things better in Arthabasca, and reconciles with her sister.

I find her growth into an independent and resilient young woman satisfying, especially because she is not the only heroine in the story who gets to have fun adventures in a fantasy world--but more about that later.

 Concept sketch for Smaragdus, the crystal Erdunn from the novel I've been working on (not the one that just came out). Smaragdus is a small entity who Tam, one of the heroines, finds imprisoned in the ruins of a city and inadvertently frees. Smaragdus asks her to find and free the other Erdunn, elemental creatures who were sealed away eons ago, and together they set out on an epic journey to gather the Erdunn and rescue Tam's sister Carrie from the questionably evil Lord Saturos. 

Along the way, Tam discovers that she and Smaragdus can link energies, giving Tam access to Smaragdus's ability to crystallize and control the rock around her, which proves immensely helpful in their adventure. However, Smaragdus remains suspiciously vague about her origins and true motives, and Tam might have bitten off more than she can chew in her quest to show Saturos what she's made of.

 

My novel Between the Salt Water and the Sea Strand is now available in ebook format (and paperback is coming soon)!

Check it out for a fun collision of modern England and British/Celtic mythology and folklore, a heroine on the autism spectrum, and more than you ever really needed to know about making rock (the confectionery, not the geologic object). 

I worked hard on this one and I really hope readers enjoy it. (Old Tom is totally based on my cat.)

Stay tuned for that cool announcement I promised!

Cover art for the next novel I'm going to publish very soon!

One of the (many) things I love about the UK is how the sky is always in a mood. <3 Also, corgis are fantastic.

You may remember me doing some concept art for this novel last year; I'd actually written the manuscript then, and now I'm finally ready to move forward with publishing. I'm very excited to share this tale of faerie warriors, a middle-aged cat lady, and surreptitious theoretical physics. Also, snails are important.

... I promise it all makes sense in the end.

P.S. I have a very special surprise planned for this novel, so keep an eye out for a big, cool announcement!

 Finalized character design for Lord Saturos, the antivillain of the novel I've been working on. Saturos is a millennia-old immortal demigodly sorcerer--although as he explains in the book, he has the ability to manipulate the universe on a quantum level, but he just calls it "magic" for the sake of convenience. Despite all appearances, Saturos is a kind, compassionate, friendly creature who enjoys music and has a sweet tooth, and wants nothing more than to see the world he rules thrive peacefully. Unfortunately, he also holds quite a bit of disdain for humanity because of how xenophobic they are towards him whenever he crosses over into our world--and in his underestimation of what humans are capable of, a stubborn teenage girl unwittingly uncovers the dangerous secrets of his world's past and the reason why Saturos is the last of his kind. With an unexpected ally and friend in the girl's brainiac older sister, who possesses the same sort of powers as him, can Saturos stop a misguided heroic quest before it's too late?

Saturos is basically me poking fun at and deconstructing every cliché evil wizard character ever. Not that I'm consciously trying to fangirl villains, but often I find I'm just more interested and emotionally invested in the highly intelligent, misunderstood fellow with phenomenal powers, a posh castle, and a retinue of quirky underlings, than the dusty peasant lad who just happened to pick up a magic sword or something. And it drives me crazy when the former just exists as a plot device to make the latter look cool for defeating him, which I kinda feel is some thinly-veiled wish fulfillment that I just don't connect with.

Saturos himself complains about this at one point in the story, and maybe it's a bit too meta, but the entire plotline has a tongue-in-cheek subtext of the characters being very aware that they are basically living out a D&D campaign.

Also, I know posts have been a bit sparse lately. I've had a lot going on and haven't been feeling super art-motivated. Also I've been replaying Pokémon Sword on a Switch account I made under my cat's name and being reminded of how much I hate the ending, which mostly consists of mercilessly crushing other people's dreams one battle at a time for the sheer sake of fame and glory. Can't we all just be Champions, guys?!

P.S. Goat eyes are adorbs.

 

Some doodles from the Idaho Museum of Natural History. Oviraptorosaur foot study, wee orycto, and a species of fern actually found in the Wayan Formation.

 I drew this illustration to commemorate a new and updated edition of my unnecessarily long Neopets fanfic Worth Searching For! I had already uploaded the previous version here, but parts of it still weren't sitting quite right with me, and I finally decided to just give it a total overhaul.

The most crucial edits here were to erase all vestiges of Isengrim's narcissistic sociopath personality from the first version, and really help Terra come into her own as a strong heroine whose kindness, wisdom, and courage inspire others to change for the better. In addition, I added a somewhat significant conversation between Isengrim and Suhel to tie Suhel's character development together a bit better than in previous versions; when I originally wrote this fic, I didn't go into much detail with her because I simply wasn't planning on doing anything else with her, but since then she's actually become a main part of the cast, so I figured she needed her due in her introductory story. I also took the opportunity to tighten up the prose, since it had been a few years since I'd last visited this story and I've somehow improved a bit as a writer since then.

If you've never read the fic, there's no better time to do so (but for Sloth's sake don't read the version that got into the Neopian Times, thankfully it's very old and you'd have a difficult time finding it, so just spare me the embarrassment and don't go looking for it).

 More museum sketching! They have an adorable little mount of Citipati that was just begging for some attention. I love that the Idaho Museum of Natural History is all about celebrating oviraptorosaurs right now!

Scrambled Circuits

Here's some original fiction for once! Sometimes I write short fiction, and then forget about it, and then rediscover it several years later and discover it actually wasn't half bad. Maybe I should post more of it here.

This is one of those. I was just having fun writing from a space probe's point of view. You've got to wonder what a computer experiences during a software glitch--what if it's like digital schizophrenia?

What I'd like to see more of from Pokémon

With it now being more than a year since the release of The Indigo Disk, and still absolutely no new information on Pokémon Legends: Z-A since the very vague teaser trailer back in March, as well as my recent various rantings on what Scarlet and Violet could have done better, I figure now is an opportune time to reflect on what I like about Pokémon as a franchise and a game series, and what I hope to see from it moving forward. (Also, happy new year and such.) (This post is rife with spoilers. You have been warned.)